Mother’s Day truly is the most important holiday (except Easter) for me. I would rather celebrate Mother’s Day than my birthday, and I don’t think that will ever change for the rest of my life.
My entire life all I wanted was to be a mom and raise a family. That sounds so archaic, but it is also 100% truth. Like most girls I had a timeline in my mind from the time I was a high-schooler. I would go to A&M, meet my future husband in our sophomore year (freshman year was for partying). We would get engaged at the end of our junior year and get married after we graduated. We would both have steady jobs right out of college (and I didn’t want to live in San Antonio). 3 years later we would have the first of 5 children. Yes, I wanted 5 children.
Obviously that isn’t how my life turned out. I met a boy and we were on the right path to be engaged in college and married right after. Too bad God kept telling me he wasn’t the right guy. Problem…there was nothing wrong with him! I walked away from a perfectly good man, and a perfectly good relationship. Then I proceeded to work in a job I hated, in a city that didn’t fit me. After several stupid career moves and 2 changes to my city…I landed back home. In good old San Antonio. Low and behold…there was this other boy there. He had always been there as my friend, but this time it was different. This time everything was perfect. Everything was easy. This time he was the RIGHT boy. Luckily he thought I was the right girl, too! 🙂
Back to the Mother’s Day part…we got married after dating for a measly 10 months, because when you know, you know. Why waste time? We got married in December 2005 and started trying to get pregnant in January 2007. 18 LONG months passed with no success. Those 18 months were very long, and very dark for me. My faith was rocked more in those 18 months than in the 3 years I spent without a single date. Somehow I knew I would find the right husband, but I didn’t know if I would ever get my one true desire…a house full of children. We talked about fertility treatments and I had a referral from my OB. In the end I just couldn’t make myself do it.
We all know that God has his perfect timing, and I just felt like if I went in for fertility treatments I wasn’t relying on God’s perfect timing. I don’t have any judgment for people who do fertility treatments…it just wasn’t what God wanted from us. My good friend Jill gave me the perfect encouragement in that horrible and scary time. She said that God is capable of anything, and that if he wants me to do fertility treatments he will change my heart. She was 100% right, and her conviction gave me such incredible peace in a very scary time.
We all know the rest of the story…Reed was born in March of 2009. Light of my life, joy of all joys. Even how he was born was orchestrated by God. God wanted Reed to live, and God wanted me to have Reed. His timing is perfect.
Since we had so much trouble getting pregnant with Reed we intentionally did not prevent getting pregnant again. Now we have Alison too! Praise the Lord for his goodness!
So that is why Mother’s Day is better than all the holidays put together. God has given me everything I could have ever hoped for. Even on the really challenging days I am usually able to keep my gratitude at the front of my mind. It helps to keep me from getting too frustrated with that little 2 year old when he wants to wear shorts in January, or with Alison when she thinks it’s time to play at 3am.
Being a Mother is the single greatest gift I have ever received. Now my job is to make sure I honor this gift by honoring this gift. All I want is to raise kind, generous, loving children…who love football and Jesus!!!
JB