*Warning – this post is an overshare.  Disregard if you aren’t interested 🙂

This morning was probably my last time to nurse my sweet little girl. 

I have been dieting hard for the last 4 weeks.  Calories cut to 600/day.  Yes, I am well aware that this is extreme and that it isn’t sustainable.  (This is the diet I did last year and lost 20 pounds in 5 weeks, and got pregnant with Ali in the middle, so I had to stop dieting 10 pounds from my goal.)

I have been waiting to start the diet until I was ready to cut down on nursing and that happened at the end of September.  I started the diet on September 23rd and was only feeding Alison in the mornings.  Somehow I have been able to have enough supply even with the crazy cut in calories…until today.  This morning she nursed for like 6 minutes total and then pulled away screaming.  I am afraid I don’t have anything left.  Sad day for me.

Some of you might be judging me for being vain and choosing to diet even though I knew it would diminish my supply significantly.  Rest assured if I only had like 10 pounds to lose I would have waited.  I have lost 21 pounds in the last 30 days and I don’t regret feeding her formula for a moment.  She and I (and Randy) are much happier with a mommy who feels better about herself.

I loved nursing you Alison.  I loved holding you close and spending alone time with you.  Now I guess we will just have to start shopping together for our bonding time.  Just kidding Randy!!!